Sunday that’s all folks

I saw the first Gold Finches in the garden this morning. There were a pair of them and they were busy with the sunflowers. I tried to quietly back my way into the house without disturbing them but the resident Sparrow chased them off. It was nice to see them anyway.

Each day I am aware of how far I have come mentally. On this side of things it is actually quite scary. Because I know what it was like to spend years on the other side. And I know how hard it has been to move myself back to where I need to be.

I have lost people I cared about because they were on the dark side, and then pulled their-selves up only to have something else knock them down. And it was that last kick in the gut that made them choose to leave the world.

I have always been a person whom never appeared to be overly excited, but then also never the type to become overly unhappy. I always sought the middle ground.

I am back to clawing my way to the middle ground.

I like waking up in the morning and seeing the birds.

I want to go places. Again. It has been so long since I have wanted that.

A lot of things transpired these past how many years to knock me off my course. And through it all I never wavered from trying to be the person everyone thought I should be.

Working and paying the bills. Keeping things going. Keeping my head above the water.

And today I saw the Gold Finches. And we visited a farmers market. And I feel like doing things. Going places. Planning for the future.

I guess no one ever said, really, that life would always be easy or always make sense. And the human mind well, she is an interesting being.


We planted some flowers in a barrel planter and I could not resist getting a few photos of them before the rains came this past Saturday.



Managed to get out and try some trails at a place I had heard good things about, but which I had not yet been able to experience for myself. They also have mountain bike trails out there – I will need to be checking those out as well.

I know this about myself, but I guess I sort of forget it as well. If there is a creek, or a stream, I am going in. Sometimes it is purposeful, sometimes it is falling in. But I am always going to wade in to test the waters.


I shot this picture while standing in the water – it was about 2 feet deep here and cold too. Of course I did not think to bring any dry socks with me…


I tried to let my shoes and socks dry out some but I still managed to have to hike out with squishy foot sounds. It was worth it.


On the hike, I had to stalk this bee to try and get a picture. I could not get any closer because the bee kept moving farther into the field of flowers.



The above picture is one of my favorite pictures I took during the hike.


I was amazed at the amount of frogs running across the trail. I did not see any snakes though. Maybe next time.

IMG_9515rrAnd this was the view from the trail heading back out. A perfect day it was.